Update

It’s been a few days since I last posted, I would like to say I’ve been but I haven’t really. We’re currently house sitting for my nanna and I have been treating it like a little holiday: we have watched lots of telly and spent the last 3 days doing nothing much at all. Charlie is obsessed with Ponyo and we have watched it an ungodly amount of times this week. It is a good film though, so I don’t mind.

Spring wears me out and for reasons I don’t understand I slump into an emotional low around this time every year. I’m not sure what triggers it or why it happens but I feel so restless, so bored, so uninspired. I usually return to normal after a few weeks and I’m starting to feel more ‘me’ already. Maybe I just take a little more time to adjust to the new season + daylight savings time?

Anyway I have joined a writing group called Writing Motherhood and we meet for the first time at the end of the month. I’m looking forward to meeting new people and improving my writing skills. It’s not a workshop or class, it’s just a group of mums who enjoy writing. I’m a little nervous but very excited!

There’s a lot to look forward to over the next couple of months - Chris finishes his Diploma in a few weeks and is already part way through the interview process for a job at Hewlett-Packard. November brings Guy Fawkes, Fireworks, Fairs and Carnival rides, so I’m already looking forward to the new month .

Charlie’s been lots of fun lately, though I feel like I’ve been doing a shitty job as a mother. We’ve watched way too much TV and I’ve been a bit short tempered but I suppose I’m only human. Things will improve though and I am sure we’ll be back to normal soon.

I think that this week, we will take my nana’s dog to the dog park for a good run around. Charlie will enjoy seeing all the dogs playing and being out in the fresh air makes me feel better. Onwards + upwards! ✌

I was tagged by creating-olive to share 10 facts about myself! I love doing these :)

1. My signature (and favorite) perfume is Tresor In Love by Lancom.

2. My husband and I met in a bookstore 6 years ago.

3. I love pre raphaelite art.

4. When I was 16, my Nanna and I took salsa dancing lessons together (because no one else would go with me)

5. When I was 7, I was in a Jaguar car commercial. However it was only broadcasted in Europe so I never got to see it.

6. When I was pregnant I craved peanut butter on toast with a cup of tea.

7. I am allergic to fresh fruit, especially bananas, apples and pears.

8. I love Opals.

9. I’ve never had a broken bone.

10. I’ve been on Tumblr for 4 years. My first URL was gracie-rose.

I tag flurounicornnz beaudom photolodico first-time-mama pixie-mama babypeapod insanitysartist and anyone else who wants to do it :)

Milestone: Bye Bye Pacifier! (25 months)

We have finally phased out Charlie’s lala (pacifier) and I’m pretty pleased! He’s used one since birth and over the last 2 years we’ve made a few attempts to wean him off it but I’ve never really worried when it didn’t happen. We caught on pretty early that it helped him through teething so we always said for the most part, we’d wait til all his teeth came through before really trying to get rid of it.

He got his last molar about 5 months ago but he was still very attached to it and it didn’t feel right for me to take away something that’s given him comfort since the first day of his existence. As with most things, I felt that it will happen when he’s ready and I have to respect that.

I’ve noticed that he’s been less interested in it this month and last week he had a stuff/blocked nose, which made it difficult to have it in his mouth at night.

One night I noticed that he wasn’t using it at all so I decided to take it away to see how he would react. It’s been nearly a week now and the transition has gone perfectly, he hasn’t asked for it so I’ve thrown it away.

His cold was the cue for me but his readyness to let it go was the driving force. I knew that if he wasn’t ready, he’d ask for it back and we’d try again at the next window of opportunity. No big deal. I think often we rush our kids because we have his idea that faster developing kids = better parenting, which while sometimes can be true, is not always true. Some children need time to take the leap and need to be guided, not pushed.

About a day after, he found comfort in one of the little blankets we bought before he was born and now likes to have that in bed at night. I’m not at all concerned about him replacing one comfort item for another, I think it’s something humans never really grow out of. (For instance, I can only sleep if my hair is tied up)

Anyway I’m really proud of him, and I’m glad that he doesn’t need it anymore. Yay!

Ennui

Sometimes I dream of running somewhere far away where we can just be. I want to spend our days running and playing and laughing and raising Charlie together, without work, without civil responsibilties, just freedom. And at night, i’ll read to him until he falls asleep and we will spend our evenings writing, and cooking and creating and making love in the moonlight. Just us, alone, inspired, and free.

I am so grateful for all the good things in my life but I can’t help but feel a little stuck right now. All our work is on the brink of culmination but we are not quite there yet. I am restless.